a flying school that does not have aircraft

i been here almost 2yr d.......... what i get is 120hr !!! i dont know what my pantient will bust off !!!! because now day worst still 3 piper i down 1 send to usa just left 1 air craft but tons of student in the waiting list !!!!

what this school plan ??? fuxxx them la..... they got no plan at all , if not they wont cancel this cancel that like last time we rent a twin from admal when our twin arrival they cancel the rented what the hell . why not just continue rent it to clear the back log ??? my life are so bored and meaning less , most of the time stay in the room facing the computer watching movie continue by another movie . the only happy period is when dinner time at least can chat with real people and eating good meal will make me feel happy but if the food is suck my mood will become worst !!

stop asking me this question !!!!! "when you graduate ? " "got girl friend d ma?"

herbaline

today i go to Herba beauty house do facial , the feeling is so nice . first is the environment is so comfortable by the time you enter you already feel relaxing , continue by many therapy foot cleaning with sea salt , than smell some herb soup than start facial time !!!! this also are 1 of the most reason i afraid of facial because my face too much pimples so the pain period longer than any body else . after the facial the most comfortable part arrived putting mask and body a bit of massage . in the end the facial end with fish foot spa , first time doing this the feeling slightly weird but because the environment so feel much better .

during facial knowing that actually be beautician the income is quit good compare with those 9-5
OL . the whole course is less than 15k than just 1 year course after 1 year can start earning real money d...... she told me that she graduate from clara just some time will go back study some make up class . than dont why so sudden she ask me bout relationship ! bcause she told me that she will her BF already 4 year d, than i say ok what so when you plan to married ah? than she answer me never think bout it also but for sure wont be that fast lo..... she say the longer lasting relationship she feel more dont want to think bout married ! ?? than i ask why lo..... she say just feel bored d gua ........ than my turn been question not thing much to say lo i tell her , got a word that still in my mind " she found another he d" because 4yr wont just that 1 ?!!

hahhha maybe what to do la.... than the rest of conversation is ah wo yi ah ah ah ah suffer time !!!


this facial cost me 204 hai, next time no money also not need to think doing this d. or find a gf than will enjoy doing facial for me lo...... luck sister give me 200pocket money so this few day not need eat bread lu...... hahahha


tired d is time for bed d.......

wth

my mood really like roller coaster , by the time thinking of her i will mood down . to know my mood is very easy because is too obvious i will silent my self and focus on what i doing now !!!
example : if i driving than i will more focus and drive fast and more faster to forget the image that pop out suddenly .

i am too easy influence !!! song , image , talk . today i was chatting with sisiter in the car than dont why suddenly taking bout the house that last time my mother wanted to buy jusr right behind her house than i feel glad mummy never do that !!!! another thinking is if i am there the house ma wont let people breaking lo......

hai ........... what ever la........ share out the feeling here are the only way i can do...........

what are they thinking ??

they brain fill with water 1 ah ???? just now i accidentaly view rachel tee and her sister profile both are in relationship the guy brain really fill with water 1......... how come they post those private picture on the web !!!

may be the girl like it too la..... hai....... so easy to get in a new relationship ??? hope i can do so. so bored .................

50 first dates !!!cool sweet nice ,sad miss lonely

i wish i have a girlfriend like that !!!! but i dont where the i can take it anot !?
feel sweet now , missing some 1 badly too. once again my mood is back to normal , i cant fly i never blame any 1 but my self hehehe because last night during prayer i ask "FATHER " to give me a beautiful weather today , but after i check the weather report i saw the weather was not that good allot of cloud and will having thunder storm rain too what ever la...... but the most important thing is i never ask for the plane will be serviceable that's my bad !!!! i will never do that again !!!!! next time pray i will mention every thing D....... wont miss out a single word .

right after that , yap call me out for breakfast at 4pm hahahha but this is pretty normal for him because last night hang over d........ think back i feel lucky i never go because i know my self well if i be there for sure i will drink more or less like him . in the end headache like him follow by vomiting !


CHEER that the word that i always told me self , because not thing much i can do d.........
but smile i think at least some thing i still able to control by my self !

my mood is really down till a level that cant describe

my flight cancel again !!!! today morning when i check the weather forcast i dont feel good d......... after check the TAF METAR for 1 hour in the end i miss the most important !!!!
i cant take off without the plane !! hai......... i just get a call from klifa say that my flight was cancel due to aircraft down !!!!!!! what is this man !!!!! i just prepare every thing .

in the end cancel flight !!!!!! hai......... today i dont feeel want to talk to any 1 d......

what wrong with me ???

every time i keep saying want to club at johor !!! but every time friend invite me to go i will reject hai.................. not use to that type of place now . even my younger cousin is going but he is good and use to it that type of place d....... for me i hate noisy i dont like people shout at me may be that i cant take if the volume is too high !!! and no really good mood to go !!! better stay at home d..........

any way : ) cheer cheer tomorrow i will see daddy mummy brother and sister d...........

CLUBBING ??

just recieve a call from them ask me out for clubbing !!!! but i dont feel wanted to go !!! i feel bored .

after the noisy what i will get ??

shit !!! my english is suck !!!!

every time people around me keep discussing that my English are poor , of course i know that too but what can i do ?

can you all just stop criticise but giving advise or solution !!!!! now i know why pilot paid are high!!! come on they deserve it !! the stress level is high until a lever that normal people wont understand !!!!! medical test , base check every half year , safety check , English test ,rating test , procedure test ,you name it !!!!!

now what i feeling just a piece of cake only compare with future !!

if last time i think now i on the highway d.........

let the time to cure and replace every thing !!!!!!! force my self to smile and never never give up my life and study .

you know what ???? you know who is my daddy ???? is God ah : P what he want to give me no 1 can take it from me but the thing that HE don't want me to have or not having it now HE will take it away keep it nicely first or just take away forever and better 1 for..........


: ) cheer jazzzzzzz life still beautiful

last time i may feel very worry

but now i think got other replace my duty d la........... what i can do is pray and hope better thing happen only . just after playing badminton super tired but feel very healthy rather than drinking . and also much more cheaper so fast i left only 200 for this month hai : ( still have to buy bus ticket but without rational thinking also know is worth to go back home .

in this world no 1 will care and love me like my parent do d......... last time i told different but just like Taylor swift song "today was a fairytale . started to love the feeling of tiredness because not much blood that in the brain d..... that make my eye feel tired and easy to fall sleep .


after so many month finally i get back the happiness to going home ! the word " home sweet home " is really true and meaningful because really feel bored and tired plus tons of loneliness staying alone far from home . so fast the tear start fulfiling d........ i think it mean to stap taiping d........ if not sure T.T

good morning

since last night my body feel energetic , till in the middle on the night i still can do sit up and some exercise because i afraid that my body shape will out of share like some 1 . if because some till i become "fei chai " i dont think that is worth .

so after drinking must do allot exercise to burn the excessive fat ...................... now all my muscle is pain like hell . bored to repeating the thing over and over again !!!

now i even start getting bored of flying d............ because fly 1 day standby 2 days at the school . i really give up this school d............. no planning not thing !!!! now every time talking bout study stuft my tear will easily flow out .
many thing happen that really out of my control !!!!!!! feel like all my future plan is gone !!! every thing or every 1 in my life change d............. every 1 like move not only a head of me but far far away from me d....... just left me alone standing at the same spot stuck in the same problem over and over again .

what a good morning : (

am i sick d?

i dont feel drunk or high or even tired .

may be too much coke d........... any way life still go on tomorrow have to go school for flying : )

how to create a rainbow from the month ??

formula is very simple

1. very very full meal
2. moody mood
3. tons of beer "depend condition"
4. drink it by using straw
5. in the next morning you should produce your own rainbow d.......

today have to detox d............ before flight still feel uncomfortable after flight worst due to pressure . tonight not 1 can disturbing me d........ am super no mood and up set stomach the best dinner for me i think is bread d......

1-1 u kidingright

sleepy cant taip d....... dizziness d....... godd 9 n

try to relax my mind

lying on the sofa holding a cup and listen those solf love song that really touch people heart , make me feel just nice . so sleepy but cant sleep because of headache and coughing .

tonight rizal is so so so happy because get a girlfriend that couple before age 12yr , so funny now age 31 d.......... but because facebook can meet back some 1 that lost contact for 19yr so amazing !

i been tired d......... i not going to complain bout my flying d...... i give up d...... now i just want to find some 1 that can chat or share feeling only .

just chat with some 1 i dont know !!??!

thank for internet now day we can chat with people that far away from us but the 1 that beside me i dont even want to talk with !!!!

so funny , feel good too chat with those you dont know because not thing to worry you can talk any thing only .

女人不吵了、不闹了、不叫了，就是真的不爱了

女人说要离开，是伤心了，是你让他失望了.

女人明知道你们之间没有未来，却情愿留在你身边做个普通朋友，不是她太贱，只是她舍不得 .

女人故意在你面前提到别的男人，不是她花心，只是想要刺激一下你，让你多在乎她一点 .

女人不主动打电话、发信息给你，不是不想你，是她不够自信，

你接到电话、短信时，是否也同样的想念她 .

如果女人不爱你，是不会对你发脾气的，不要报怨自己的女朋友脾气太怪，女人只对她爱的人发脾气.

女人不是不知道你还有别的女人，她选择独自伤心却不揭穿你，是害怕揭穿后给了你一个离开她的借口.

女人总是在你面前假装很开心，不是她没心没肺，成天傻乐，只是为了在你面前留下最美的样子.

男人，其实你不懂，女人一定要你在睡前和她说“晚安
Updated last Sunday • Report Note

累

精神上，肉体上。 真的很累了

not feeling to take dinner tonight, no mood and no appetite even is hungry

烦死了！！！！！

从早上一大清早就去FLYING SCHOOL ， 等到我飞时就下大雨了。 OK I WAIT 等到旁晚AIRCRAFT IS FREE NO 1 USING D...... 飞机不能飞！！！！！ 应为电池有问题！ 但我还是不放弃KEEP TRYING TO START THE AIRCRAFT TILL THE BATTERY TOTALLY FLAT !!!

BUT FOR JUST NOW SITUATION IF I CAN START THE AIRCRAFT I DONT CARE !! I WILL FLY IT DONT CARE LA.... I NEED THE HOUR MAN!!!! T.T LAST LAST WAIT FOR NOTHING . BUT NOW THINK BACK I FEEL GLAD BECAUSE I STILL A LIFE : )

slep

i always belief that tomorow wil be a better day for me !! : )


my brain is too clean now so wont do thing without thinking any more !!!

............................................

just finish praying !!!!! my tear almost flown out d...........

两只麻雀不是买一银子吗？
五個麻雀、不是賣二分銀子麼．但在　神面前、一個也不忘記。

路12:7 就是你們的頭髮也都被數過了．不要懼怕、你們比許多麻雀還貴重。
诺神容许，没有一只会掉在地上！ 试想，你还需要感到自卑，不如人，没有价值吗？

i think i should expensive than 2 Sparrow right ?
definitely .

you too

端午节

i don't know that today is 端午节 , i do miss the taste of the 'zhong' especially those that make by mother or mother friend .

but i think tonight for me 游子 that study far away from home is really no chance to enjoy the zhong but maggi curry .

suddenly miss home so much the missing feeling more and less like yesterday night T.T

just view a video clip that share in facebook

.这样浪漫的事肯定是我才可以做到的啦。。还... [HQ]

romance !!!! it is ?? booking the whole cinema , camera man , ring , wedding plan , so romance right ???? i do feel it so so so romance !!! i want my weeding better and grand than this at least i can fly !!!! i want have a air wedding , sport car brother team , big big wedding ring but to do all this need money i am talking bout huge amount of money !!!

during the video clip i feel "sour grape" , so young ! so sweet !
what to do ! not really born in such rich family but yes also i dont want to use my parent money !!

dream always that beautiful right ?? but the true always is the another way round of it ! sound not that sweet any more ?

just feel gray in my life now , still looking for sun light that can produce the beautiful rainbow

what the 930 d.....

great !!!!!!!!!! i think is time for lunch d.......

she's out of my league

just finish watching this movie . what i got to say is wah!!

just want to say good night & sweet dream ???

it is that ???

just feel want to hear the familiar voice to have a bette3r dream

confuse !!!!!!

!!!!! not thing can hide the feeling !!!!!!

what happen to me ????

tomorrow hope got flying !!T.T

focus on flying make me clean !!!

no 1 will belief me !!!

oh no is not a dream !!!!!!!

what that happen this morning was not a dream !!!!! what i did is in real life !!!!!!!! after checking the phone i knew it is real !!!!!!

people may just cant belief it !!!!
some time we really cant control our inner heart !

suppose to be super moody !!!!! due to flight cancel not 1 but 2 flight been cancel in 1 day . but now what i feel is tired but slightly joy for another thing .

tomorrow have to fly nav

but till now still cant fall sleep !!! hai................ so more tomorrow fly alone T.T scare scare because the roate i not really remember d........ hai... all the best for my self la.....

what do you think ????

think !!!

















many thing is our call!! which way to go ?






happy ending is what every 1 looking for !! but got any 1 really found it ?? always drop into the same problem the arrangement wrong every thing when wrong vice versa

古灵精探B

episode 14 and 15 . so fast i watch till episode d......... but episode 15 make me feel so touch because remind of some thing !

life is just too bored , not thing to do !!!!! no flying what can i do is lying down on the bed watching drama !!

brand new day

today morning 6 some thing only can fall sleep ! since not thing to do also just continue sleeping till afternoon . the life style at johor is just so bored dont what to do ! feel not intrested in any thing !!! every day just hoping get to fly than finish this course faster .

i need a long long holiday , enter this fuxx school screw up most of my plan !! what i hoping last time was now i should graduate d..... prepare for interview d...... but now even the 165 single engine also haven done yet . that really up set me !!!

yesterday after drinking i go play dart game , till now i still can feel my muscle pain till . even i drinking so much but i still not dare to pick up the phone and call !!! i just dont like or can say i afraid to accept the true !!!

every day i feel my self was so empty , keep repeat the same thing again and again !! may be last time use to have some 1 to chat the time also pass faster !!! hai................ sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

is time for breakfast d...........

side effect from drinking d...............

just now during drinking , no cough at all but now cough like hell !!! after the high pass every thing back to normal !!! i told i can have a good rest after drink but shit !! still a wake in the middle of the night !!! non stop coughing make me cant fall sleep .



just now chatting with friend ....... always is like that after drink . holding the phone after pressing the nu,ber than delete again !! trying to relief my self from this but i dont what i want !?? in the end , order 3 more bucket and go back home continue with martell .

hate to stuck in this school the most i hate is stuck and keep turning inside the same shit problem !! remind only i feel lonely and down . try using alcohol to replace the loneliness even just for a day .

drunnk hhah

3bucket . continue later

soba cold

when mood down eat some thing cold and sweet memory may help me reducethe anger !!!

不面对=问题消失 ？？？

我可以做的自由这样了！！！

结束误会从今天开始吧。朋友还是最舒舒服的 ！！！

太烂了

the ending of down with love is just too suck !!! feel like rushing end it with silly ending !!!

can be say almost no ending !!!! cheap cake gila.............

事实是残酷的

我不知道该做什麽？

说又是死，不说又造成误会！

咳！！！！ 不想伤害他人。 我甘愿受伤的是我！！！

让时间证明一切吧。

哥

他哪单纯又自私的个性， 我很怕结果出来会跟原来的计划不一样。

我能做的只有为他祷告了，我不想她和我一样因为开始的确有神应许但是一旦开始妥协与罪那时一 切都太迟了。

我不想那样！！！！！！ T.T


i been to this because i move wrong i ignore it and the wrong become bigger and bigger d.............
till i want to recover also cant d........ in the end God plug out my socket . T.T pls dont happen on him too.

病

病也要病的合适， 在外生病一点也弄不好玩 。

药都吃完了病还在， 这还是第一次。

another air crash

so far my school have 3 air crash d........... unlucky but lucky in all just light injure .

thinking when is our turn !??? now day flying i try not to do some silly thing or think those silly thing that keep boder me d........................


the chat between brother and sister i wont never forget !!! especialy " your case already have a very nice full stop d" so is time to wake and look forward . thank for that word !

non of my business any more d.......... i also dont how yap get those girlfriend so fast 1........... all also nice looking and hot !!!!! but mostly not my type !!! because almost all "work at the pub" every night must visit club . ya ............ she do look hot now but think her face after 10 or 20 year than i will feel better find other that i can take it !!!! i dont want a family that full of querrel !!!

sick

i think when i working time i may love MC for sickness .

first time sorethroat till no voice at all !!! hai...... every time i go travel i get sick !!! hai, some more every time also come with the packet !!! first sorethroat , headached , selsema , fever ..........

i hate sick !!! make me feel ill and more lonely ..............

i willing spent more time in kuantan at least mummy will cook a very very nice meal for me and daddy will take care of me !!hehehehe

told delete this blog today d..........

but thing just when out of my expectation !!!

i cant imaging what "he" did !!!! how come he did such thing !!! mother ass hole , idiot busted !!!! how can he do this type of thing ???? i cant belief it !!!! i really cant accept it !!!! why why why !!!


if this happen happen in my own family i dont think i can take it lo......... i think i will kill "him" !!!!
mother fuxxxx i feel really hurt when hear that !! i cant belief what i hear lo........ but i know that is no joke !!! what he did is really really dog !!!!!!!! vegetarian fuxxx you la........ do such thing !!!!

i told this type of thing only will happen in the drama series but now it just appear just around me !!

dont want to know

the more i know , the more i worry !



the more i listen , the more i will be sad !



the more i read , the more unforgettable i fee !



the more i updated , the more feel lie and fake at the past !







what is the true ? for now i dont really want to know any more d.................. 1 lie need 100 lie to cover it !!!! it mean 100 lie need 10000 to cover . so never end !!

money can done every thing !!!!!!!!

i just finish meeting with "sultan pahang " pilot . why human have to be like that ??? my friend rizal because the father are high post the military that why he can fly more !! that time his hour is less than me !! but now his hour is more than me by 20hour d.......... hai........... just now my mother friend the sultan pilot use the tengku name say please take this case personalty and hope will have a good result for me !!!

because my father no power so just can ignore my request ?? because no rich enough ?? my tear almost dropping now !!! but i still hold it first !!! i dont want ummy worry for me any more i know she very worry bout me d....... and just now she told me that i should be humble and learn from the aunty son . and he say my elder brother yesterday case !!!
hai...... mother cook all the meal d..... but i think slightly more people la....... but mummy also purposely keep some meal fo him but i told mummy la..... just left a bit only he dont want 1 la..... because he plan to bring his girlfriend home for dinner .

so the thing just like my expectation !!! he just see the meal than go out take dinner with his girl friend lo..... mummy look up set la.... but never mind lo.. i say because really left a bit only ma......
hai... some time i dont why my brother do those silly thing 1 ??? act only ma..... make her happy only ma..... so far for me as long mummy cook for me i very happy d..... because i afraid eating outside !!!

祝福

希望他开心我就很开心了， 生气一个人是很累的。

把恨换为祝福我应开会更开心了。

沙发

我家就是很奇怪~,~ , 房间好像永远都不够 。 每次我回来我唯一的私人空间就只由“客厅”了。

不过这已是以前的事了，以前就只有我坐在客厅与她。 但是现在连客厅也被霸占了 感觉就是怪怪的 不习惯， 通常只有我躺在沙发 但是现在想起还记忆犹新。黑就是黑白就是白， 回到过去只是把伤害复兴而应。


痛头很痛