i really afraid of loneliness

now day i feel the time walk very slow and unhappy lo, because the future is not clean at all , this year i just 20 she is 19 both also long way to go , the first big conflict was happen when she away from me and start working d.......... because study time there got too much time to meet up and also the community still very small .
it just like u friend and my friend both know each other , but when working time "no more the type of song sing " D............... for me is worst my job if i working international i will have bigger community around the world of course she also due to the movie make up artist jobs.....
i really cant have i clean image for my future because now our relationship will be stronger or less is really depend on this year d, after this year stable can maintain than is OK but if either 1 of the site cant stand sudden bust out the problem and the problem both cant solve than that time really sad lo...... scare to think d..... now i just try to enjoy every second of happiness i have d......

current mood hard to explain a bit scare and slightly lose confident to own self d..............


so dont worry be happy