waste..............i am not doll...........................

i feel i am so stupid , always hope changer ! i always cry and beg for not thing only . i skip meal collect money just to buy the nintendo ds than dy after she ask for break d.......................

that moment my heart was bleeding , till i cant even stop the blood flowing d.......................... i told i can playing the some game together with her like other couple. btshe choose to play alone without me !_! i feel upset .

she evert time call me to belief her , belief her . how i going to belief her d..................... she is doing non thing just shopping and drinking with friend ................... i dont see any thing she trying to changefor me, hoing just make me crazy ................

by the time go back kuantan , i have to paid back my mother the money d.......... this dec i had spent alot of money d.......... but i feel up set for that . i even think what to buy for "j...mummy and daddy d...." but now break again like last time .

i dont what is going on at all.......................... i really cry till i hate my self d............. being so cheap till always offer my self to overcome her...... for what people wont appeciate d.... la........
stop crying la......... wei stop crying a.............. what the fuck now the tear is droping drop by drop again ........................

what is going on la................ why this have to keep on happen to me >?? i just a ordinary boy lo...... it is not good feeling at all to love the 1 that not loving you any more ......
she will never understand me.........


i pity for her mother case , but why she must mix her mother case together with me ?? is not fair at all ........ fuck la...... tear keep fulfilling dont want to say d la.................