pray day1

i still crying !_! .................... i just make a deal with god , i ask it is god want me to learn some thing in this ?
than i make the most pain prayer , i say if god think she is my ms right please do keep her niver and build up her nicely and return to me un the future , but if she not my ms right please god take away and please do cure my heart and stop my tear and bleeding ...............................

i dont what to do any more , just waiting for god answer i belief father will make the best choice for me .............................

within this week i will keep praying till i get the answer , this time i want my every single drop of tear is meaningful ............ i cant share to to any body d........... i scare i become crazy , that why i write down all in my mind here good for me to read back next time with other point of looking !