people come and leave daily

i just receive a message that mother of my aunty just pass away at the hospital. I hope that she will be in the heaven too. Going to visit aunty tomorrow, paid tribute.

happy birthday to mei san

though she will present in the end no, i think is good too because i also dont know what will happen if really meet up ? but thank you jo for a company me or we company each other :) all the relative and friend we have no idea especially me I feel that i come from a totally different world.

I confirm take the offer from wing air, working at jarkarta for 7 yr. I think there will no meet up in this period of time. Working working looking forward the brighter future will make me feel much more better.

thinking that we would like to try every new thing by our own, but it is must try every thing ???? It is really a freedom to do so ??? for example having sex here and there is bad but people may say no i would like to try it see whether is really bad ?? another way round i will think people say if you jump off from 50th floor will dead will you say i want to try it also because i dont believe ???

left or right stay or leave

dear lord i pray that i will live by faith, and my faith will increase daily no matter how hard i will choice to believe. I want my faith will never go down again, starting from today keep counting how blessing I am.

so when i feel down at least i know lord does help me last time, with His amazing way.

is time to move on

if every thing go smooth, i will definitely work at Jakarta. I feel bless too at least i am just job less for few month, but the current issue is where can i find such big amount of money.

now is not taking about 10k but is 100k, the journey to a commercial pilot is really tough than i though. It depend how much stress can you take it, if you like is a wealth family than every thing should be fine. Most of the thing can be done by money is no more a problem any more.

Do i look like a big brother ?

this day many little sister or brother will come to me and share they problem. I am the younger in the family, so I dont really know how to take care others. What I can say is always pray and request wisdom from my mighty Father in the heaven.

What is the destiny of my life ? even though i cant view the whole great picture, but i pray that i can view it bit by bit just like a puzzle. The time is running out, I try to act fast before is too late.

Durian ss2

seriously no joke i just ate more that 7 durians. Feel like vomiting, meet some new friend at kl church. Time travel really rapidly few more month i may start training at indonesia if every thing go smooth.

For me not thing much i miss in KL beside memories, because memories is the only thing that no 1 can take it away from me.

:P

安全感

we always look for secure feeling, when you invest on some thing most of your energy on spent on that investment. For an example relationship is 1 on the investment but it will be a high risk investment if you do it a wrong way Human way and not God principle.

some people may found they secure in term of money or wealth, and for those people will the sadness because beside money they have no thing 穷得只剩钱.

A bad investment no only bring bad return to yourself but your next generation. Do you believe your parent will provide you every best thing they could provide to you. If you believe it mean that you also will agree with the another statement God will provide every best thing to us because we are God precious child.

where is belong to me ?

will indonesia be the place that accepting me ? really no other ? actually i dont mind to work at any way any more since i am a free man now why not ? 7 year make no different

who care where you work as long at the end of the day your career is successful than no body care where you working at.

1 step forward

Greetings from Asia Pacific Flight Training

Dear Mr. Ng Kuang Yau,

This is to inform that you have been SUCCESSFUL in your interview with Wings Air held at MayTower Hotel, KL in July 2011. We will release to you theLetter of Confirmation of Employment after you have made payment as per invoice attached.

You are required to do the Psychomotor/Psychometric Test as soon as possible at APFT, KL if you have not sit for the test.

at least 1 step forward to my dream , just like how you eat an elephant 1 bite at a time. First interview pass than psychomotor test and flight test. Ground school test indonesia flight test covert license test. TEST TEST TEST EXAM EXAM EXAM is a part of my life :) i have to love it no matter how.

work

i willing to paid for a job and earn only 2k per or less i also dont mind , as long i get a pilot job flying high again . that time only i will call my self a pilot, so if you ask me what i am doing i will only answer still applying for a job that all.

no time to tell any body i am pilot , because no 1 will believe it any way and yes pilot can wear spectacle below 500 degree if more than t&c apply.

salt and wound

我不知道这样的决定使否正确？ 不管那么多了，朋友不用像天上的星星一样多真心的一个就够了。

我想我的确定应该可以减少摩擦和尴尬的事件发生， 印尼到底会是什么样的生活我自己也不晓得满脑子想的就是债务，金钱，工作，虽然爸妈口里说没事但我的心一点都不放心。 彼经爸妈都老了该是时候到我们孩子报答。

找一份工真的这么难吗？ 眼看我 在家好想没有用式的！！ 真的吗？才不事呢 :P 有的我感恩没的我也感恩尽可能每天都说正面的话， 人身短短几十年真的有必要浪费时光在不开心的事吗？

我的缺点伤害了很多人，决定一一把它给删掉。

is salt or sugar it is depend on your decision i hope this time is sugar.

cooking is the best stress medicine

every time i feel stress or got thing to think that i will start cooking but i cooking does't mean that i am hungry i just want to cook and over come the time. When see people enjoy your food you will also enjoy it.

after so many year i do grow up in physical and my mind set. I am who i am :)

future working time

i afraid i will be a womanise in the future career :( , i am just a normal guy i do feel desperate for sex and this will really danger for my future. I dont want to be a play boy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want a blessing weeding and not trying this girl or that girl , is up to you to believe or not 2 year in johor i never visit a single club. Because i know my self very well i will easily want to have sex with those willing so i choose to ran away from that . Thank God i safe for this 3 flying year at least i not fucking any other outsider.

what if i really working at indonesia ? i want to earn my money asap i want to be a man and not a boy any more. T.T taking pocket money time is enough for me i want to earn my cash and pay the debt asap.

a good gartering with " brother and sister "

is not easy to have to some 1 that can share out what inside your heart so much , looking forward or can say force my self to do so. So time i do feel my self are fuck-up , last time how can i do thing that is so ridiculous ????

but i know is a part of my journey, that way i dont want to start a new relationship any more. I know i am suck and i dont want the thing happen again in my future relationship again, Ego really kill me T.T learning to be humble down my self because this is mine the biggest problem. 自卑and 自大 is just a word different last time i because i am 自卑so i become more 自大 but now i know is not working when 自大 so better just be who you are.

我不想再伤害她了. i am really suck to be a boyfriend even 2 hand cant count my mistake but i choose to let go. Let every thing go naturally i dont think i will get some 1 soon since i already single for 2 years.

many7 friend call me to start a new relationship but i dont want to start a new relationship is because i feel i screw up the last relationship so much and i dont wan to screw the next any more.

after so many year only i know what is my problem

(大男人主意 and lack of 安全感)。Of course i know is never too late. human always learn from they mistake. I hope i wont do the mistake at another relationship.

love you :)