baby pillow pillow talk

today i just brought a new pillow, but some how i still feel that the old pillow better. any way just leave it as a additional option for me. so now i have soft pillow,feather pillow,long hugging pillow,small pillow.hope that will bring me a sweet dream tonight.

i have a long hug pillow it follow me since young than another small pillow join during high school. thinking this time go back call tailor make a small pillow case for the pillow because it changing colour from white slowly to yellow.

now all the pillow are full baby smell, for me i cant sleep well without it. a comfortable hugging pillow for me are very important lack of sleep will effect my performance if serious will cause danger for me during flying. the most important issue and also a fact now day we always spent 1/3 of day on the bed so is good to have some thing to hug before fall sleep :P .

first time cancel flight stressss

my study and future job really stress like crazy !!!! yesterday i a wake few times 1 at 2am 2 4:44am that is scary man..... than follow by 6:00am. 6:25am is the max limit that i must wake up if not will be late for flight.

today is sunday so the traffic is much much better compare with weekdays but so how i still try a new road by using highway what even it cost me rm2.30 but it also take me 20min from putra height to subang airport i willing to paid for that man....... compare that 1hour plus stuck in the jam the frustrated feeling and anger kill so many good brain cell that 2.30 cant replace back.

even thought i reach so early but i dont have the key to enter so end up i have to wait till 9am only can enter. so what the point that i reach there 7.30am !!!!!!

a Valentine day !!!!!

a single awareness day :P i dont give a shit on this man...............................

i was thinking that how can people survive with the family with just having 1000 per month ??

how they use the money ? because for my self cut out petrol F&B per day already cost me 15 minimum it equal to 450 per month !! left 250 for me !!!! i also dont how to spent it !! if i go club a night can easily cost me 150-300 d.......

must plan a financial freedom way for my self, if not later on even thought i earn 7000 i also will say not enough money.

everyday eat doing not thing, end up with gain more weight on the body !!!

12km different place different time needed

normal thinking how long will will take for 12-19km ?/?

in kuantan it may take me most 10min

in johor 15min

in KL 1hour plus !!!! yes is 60++ minute i been stuck inside my car pressing the clack and break.....

crazy right !!!! welcome to kl i will use to it slowly

eat eat eat

too angry d...... just cut few cake lapis , 2 apples a cup of cereal.

to over come my anger

a new line

FXXXXXXXX the bustard !!!!!! damn chicken out !!! dare to scratch my car but dont dare to face me !!!!! shit the neighborhood !!!! no joke i am really piss off now !!!!!! fire deep into my heart !!!!!!! just now my mind just pop out all the revenge trick but after drink pretty of water try cool down me self.

'KL suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm feel really glad to who i am.

human always like that, we will feel jealous with those rich people have almost every thing,

but we will never look back what we having compare with those poor,

may be what we dont have is just a pair of new shoe ,

are we realize that or notice around us that is people that dont have leg beside a shoe ?

this is a fact that happen between you and me, we use to the comfortable life style most of the time

we forget who are the one that provide all the comfortable and care.

the chinese new year is just around the corner, let's make this year a brand new new year. in the first day of new year try wake up early beside greeting our parent bring them a cup of tea too it may look silly but i believe our parent will feel warm.

beside GONG XI FA CHAI let wish them a healthy body and happy always.

now day every single dollar i spent and every thing i having now i really feel glad. single period does change my thinking, try to grow up and no childish any more. future time my hand may control hundred peoples life.

traffic jam !!

now i know what call traffic jam , today i been stuck in the traffic for a hour. kl really not suitable for human living, hope that every thing will be fine. lucky i have a gps but also thank for the GPS i stuck in the jam and get lost too.

hai...... miss kuantan so much

requirement !!!

seriously i starting feeling lonely and wish to get a partner but after i reconsidered i realise that i don't even have the minimum requirement to date a girl. sad right ? in age 22yr still studying and open the hand wide enough to take money from parent. Yes those time i feel jealous with those love bird around me but every time i think back the shit i did last 4 year i better be alone .

currently i am a free man, mean a good time for me to do and train me self up. not only we choose people but people also have the right to choose as well. how to shine amount these others? is a good question for me.

what we believe is faith,without faith we are not thing but animal sound rude but that is truth. i was thinking that will a father hide the best thing and give the poor thing to the child ? the answer is no !!! clear enough right? this answer can even answer by a 3yr child. so how bout our holy father ? of course FATHER will provide us the best right but most of the time we put FATHER in a difficult condition. example i pray for a good wife and a girl pray for a good husband but either is suck you thing God will join them together ? totally not but human always like to try and error, till a level that full of wound that time only a wake. just like me,some how in my heart will have a scar that follow me forever and ever.

love is a wonderful thing created by God,let's pray clearly to God and always wallk with God i am tired that keep falling and climb back over and over again. is enough !!!!!

requirements

• clean and strong enough in religion
• clean mind set ( date for build future family )
• financial freedom
• plan to get married ( able to get married in future 3year)
• a special chosen 1 from God to me. (sincere christian )

non of it inside my pocket.

if smile will make me look better i willing to show up my smile. any way i am suck in smiling :P

打败戰了

我又生病了，如果肺会咳出來我看早就咳出來了。 我最怕就是咳嗽不停的，连血絲都咳出來。吓死我了！。

爱神的伴侣

reach kl a new place again

currently will stay at bukit jalil than will move to putra height tomorrow or Saturday , seriously don't like KL jam here and there waste so many time on the transport !!

a brand new page for me , will operate at subang airport soon . after so long never fly i almost forget how to fly any more . 25hour left now more study asking but do every thing my self , is a good time for me to grow up d............ no more childish act . every time when i put on my uniform i will always remind my self i am pilot !! people and my life on me . no joke no funny or short cut way for that .


:) is a process growing in my whole life .

what time now !!!

my friend till now haven finish sim flying start after us , but the school need them be at the school at 830am !!!! 830 till now already 11pm still flying . 14hr30min almost 15 hour !!!!! crazy !!! pity those that without transport must wait till the last guy finish only can go back !!!

but this is what we will face in the future !!!! since the sim training are operated 24hour . some time the slot can be mid night or 3-4 am the time that people sleep till the saliva also fall out. that we stress in the sim training !!! that is no easy way to be an airline pilot !! we deserve the paid :P because we work hard hahha

tired

within 2 week i able to clock 10hour simulator flight hour and 1 hour of flying is almost equal 4 hour of driving . every morning 630am have to wake up due to the house have only 1 toilet and have 5 of us . i am lucky that all my flight are morning at least evening i reach home can take a nap but my some of friend no in luck as i do their have to wait we finish flying than only they start , today is my last sim flight it take 2 hour plus. every time i fly with flight partner mean that i fly 2 hour as captain he fly 2 hour as captain and i be the co pilot !!!! because of that my flight start from 830 till 130++ .

now i am very very worry and feel really stress out , 25hour is all i left !!! 25 instructed hour after that no more SORRY but fly correctly . the another thing scare me off is the interview , fully in english is 1 thing testing the knowledge that check mate me .

eating sweet and looking at the family picture keep me walking and become stronger daily

down really down

if in real flight i think i may dead long time ago !! today inside the sim training the instructor give so many emergency thing and instrument failure even though i able to land the air craft on the run way but the all the procedure are definitely cock out !!! and land at that fast speed , the chance to land safely are really rare even impossible !!! T.T how say easy to become a pilot ??

if thing happen like today but in real situation i may kill more that 100ppl in the flight d........... the stress really kill me and my friend as my co pilot !!!!

seriously no joke to be a airline pilot !!! any thing happen pilot must able to over come the stress and problem without any help !!!

the most make me feel down is yesterday star paper !!! still got 500 plus pilot jobless and the airline only take in 100 ppl per year !!!! hai.........................

there is no way back for me d................ so how hard i must hang it and over come it !!!!!

lifeless

06/01/2010 today i wake upat 645 travel from bukit jalil to kelana jaya station told me bout 1 hour



to be continue ........... going to kelatan now ..............................

going off soon

just came back from kl tomorrow will go to kl again and stay till friday direct go to kelantan . kelantan seriously not thing there but is good too no entrainment so can focus more on study and flying . May every thing go smooth and i still a life a graduate this may !!!!

i almost finish up my daddy whole life saving , if i say i am not stressful is telling lie . the day that i graduate mean the day i jobless , now day is not easy to find vacancy any more so many pilot graduate every year but airline still remaining the same or even worst !!!

after visit few mother kl friend , see those rich people life style are so attract me big house big car !!! i know being a pilot cant achieve those thing . it is must do some thing darkness to earn big money !!?? first friend own a car business but at the back is runing ALONG business .

:) bored bored bored !!!!! alone ............................

kelantan

this year maybe cant celebrate chinese new year d............ have to continue flying , and the wedding best man i also not sure whether i can make it a not !!!! hai.............. pray for every thing so smooth :)

so long never fly i almost forget for to fly already .

i am suck am drunk

i am suck ................ next week i going to kelantan d........ my self are suck how take care or other but i really hope them are free from this type of life any more . the mother like that i dont think they are happy !! hai,,,,,,,,,,,,, a good chance for me to share the gospel i mess it again !!!!!

drunk :) that all i remember :(

i feel that i am suck that al i want to say

tonight the first aim i want to bring them to petra but i failure ........... then end i couse both of them drunk and myself half drunk !!!!!!!!!!! hai.................... this few cup really not worth and next week i going to kelantan d........... hai i feel really sad !!!!

i going off next week d,................ hai,.................... dont how la !!!!!!!!!! any way i am suck !!!!!!!!

regret to drink so much d..............